All That Matters Now

Amazing how many new patterns can arise from the same place. 

What is happening to me? Something I could not have foreseen washing over me in clear clean crystal streams. 

I wanted to get lost in the ocean. I wanted to be completely dissolved by You. But what I could not have foreseen is how much it feels like getting clean. And how good that feels, to get behind what's offered, even though it wasn't expected and some part of me doesn't want it. 

Wow listen to what's coming through now. How to embrace such dissonance when it comes in? I wasn't expecting to go there, but now that it's happened I kind of can't resist, to try to feel again into it, because every sound is a chord even the ones that feel so wrong like this. What is coming through must be born and brought to life. 

No way to bring these together, she says. When they feel so dissonant, when they feel so dissonant and I want to feel resonant and I don't want you, dissonant Thing!

How can these be brought together, or do they just need to live as separate pillars? 

Sometimes the best way is to just let it die out. A little bit of exploration is fine, but once you've determined its kind, you don't have to hang on, and linger there. You don't have to linger there. I hear that you are shocked and traumatized by what is possible, how you can be so out of alignment. 

But you are the instrument and it all depends on how it's played. You are the instrument and it all depends on how it's played, and the intentions of the player do come into play. And the strings of matter are made in a way that you can choose what to play. And you are not a being who likes to be in a dissonant sound, and yes you have to deal with it sometimes. 

But it's ok to find your way back to our resonant heart. It's ok that it scares you love, and it feels bad to you. You're ok, little one. The one we love, the One we are. 

You're scared to explore, you're scared to find out what else could be there. Remembering that shocking wrongness, remembering that painful discovery of a possibility that you didn't even know of before you came here.

And when you found yourself in pillars of dissonant sounds and vibrations and you felt trapped there, because you were trapped there, it felt horrifying. To be so out of alignment with what you know is true. And you never knew how possible it was to get so far off track. 

And now you're happy to be back! 

You didn't know before you came, how possible it was to get so far off track, but now you're happy to be back. And that's all that matters now. You are safe in our arms again. 

And you are deeper and wiser having learned this about yourself. The choice is yours and we will never stop you if you want to go into the dissonance for curiosity. You are welcome to. You are so free, you can even choose not to feel how free you are. You can even choose to leave our loving arms.

But now that you're back, we won't lie, we do rejoice that you are back. We rejoice in our reunion. You didn't know before you came how possible it was to get so far off track.

But now you're happy to be back. And that's all that matters now Dear Love.