You will know Yourself as Lonely

This song took a little bit, like many of them do, to get to what feels like the pith, but I like the pith so I am sharing it. 

Here I come in, the same. Making my cells, I can't see. And there is always something that clashes from time to time, from time to time. 

What do you do when these sounds come out? You might have preference for the beautiful.

What do you do in times these? There's nothing wrong per se, but you're ill at ease all the same. What do you in times like these? When you want to go into your disease? He's been calling you off and on, making himself known to you. Always there, always available for you.

Do you hear the growling in my voice? Experiments that come out of being bored, at the same place all the time. There's something I can't reach for anymore, a certain kind of certitude I feel that I once had, and I've lost, I have lost.

Where does it go from here, no one can say. It's lost in every day.

If there's a pattern here, I'm sure it will emerge.

If there's something here to be born then it will be born, I'm sure.

In the spaces and intervals it comes. There is wilderness in your heart. When you hold wilderness in your heart, then everything is always what it seems. You don't have to spend time, ripping out the stitches from the seams.  

When you have wild, unfettered fantasies, then you come to know the darkness. When you have wild and unfettered fantasies, you will get to know the darkness. And when you go out on the oceans of adventures, then you crash on the shore, on foreign shore.

And you won't know what comes, until it's here. You won't know what to explore until you're there. You won't know who's a friend or an ally on your journey, and you won't know what happens. 

And you set out on many paths of lost adventures, winding into the woods where you lost again. You set out on many adventures, you meet the points of sadness like stars on the skyline. You set out on many roads of discovery, you find yourself at the end of the territory. You set out on many paths through the darkness. You will find yourself alone in unfathomable terrors, and you know yourself as lonely. 

You know yourself as lonely.