Hard Time with Your Love

OK Beloveds, ok my loves. I don’t really know how to proceed.

Do you need to know how to proceed? Isn’t it everything you need, just to know that you already wholly already, wholly already what you are? Wholly already what you are?

Doesn’t it mean that all that can unfold will be what you need? Whether or copper or gold? Doesn’t it mean it will be everything you need it to be, everything you need it to be?

I see your point. If it’s not even such a big deal to make mistakes. If it’s not even such a big deal to make mistakes, it’s true I want to please You, by removing all that’s not You. And deep inside I’m patient, and I know what is not You is not me. Yes deep inside I’m patiently knowing what’s not You is not me. So what’s the rush you might ask. What’s the rush?

I’ll tell you what the rush is! It’s that I don’t want to cause harm. I’ll tell you what the push is, to skip over oceans of harm. I’ll tell you what my heart says, please don’t make me see again, please don’t make me see what I already feel and know. Please don’t make me admit I know all about it inside and out. Please don’t make me know in the light of day, what I do already know I know I know. I still can’t face it easily, I don’t really know why.

I don’t know why I want to rush it. Seems like it’d be better darling love, not to push it. Don’t know why I try so hard to control it, seems like it’d be better just to give in and roll with it.

Oh, there it is, the place that I was trying to get all this time, to break on into! A space that I know is waiting latently inside. There’s a side I know waits patiently for me to join.

But how can I leave, the ones behind who don’t know how to get out yet? How can I leave when they don’t know yet what they’re trapped in, Mother please, I know you know what I’m saying, what I’m feeling, what I’m singing.

Yes, we do, darling. We do know what you mean, yes we do.

Such a strange time on planet, what can we say about it truly? When the world has split apart into fragments. We don’t want to lie to you darling, there are some who will go. But you know there is a plan for all, that is the best that it could go.

I have to believe you or I will not get far. I have to believe you, guiding stars. But how I can carry on knowing everyone’s not all right? How can I let everybody live in a world of extinguished lights? What I do with my love, darlings, what do I do with my love for all of the beautiful stars fallen to this hole? For all of the beautiful stars, who have fallen into holes?

We know you want to have a path of control. We know it’s very hard to let go. But you must understand you’re not the plan. And you cannot be burdened by the whole entire land. You have to let go of what cannot be carried onward, because of its own free choice to persist in paths of darkness, carry it all the way to the end. It’s not your fault what the others choose. It’s not your fault what the others do. We mean this lovingly, we mean this lovingly. We know you have a hard time with your love. We know have a hard time with your love.