Matter of Time

Hello again, our lovely friend. You lovely seed of a sheltering tree. Hello again our lovely child. You little bit of the enormous wild.

You’re tuning in and yes we’re picking you up! We hear you loud and clear, the signal is clear. What’s on your mind? Tell us what’s on your mind and we will do our best to find a way to help you on your way.

Thing is, I don’t even know, I’m just soothed that you’re here, that I’m not all by myself. I’m not even sure what the matter is. I just know that whatever the matter is I need some way to calm back down, I need someone to hold my hand, I need someone to hold my heart against theirs. And yours is so big, and your arms are so strong.

We think we can help you find out what the matter is, darling. We think we can help you find its name. Because there is a name for every kind of pain. Every pain is a lost piece of someone with an original name. We are the ones who bring all sparks back to the flame. We are the ones who are the keepers of all names. We can help you find the name of your particular kind of pain. It is important to be named. More than most people say. We maintain, it is important to be named.

You know, it’s just that I don’t even know where it came from. I was just singing my songs with the others, when all of a sudden I had this feeling that I’m not like the others. That there’s something wrong with me that’s not wrong with the others. That there’s some special way that I am not as good as the others. This hate for me came rolling in on the wind, saying I was too big, I was too messy, I was too female. That there’s something wrong with me, whether or not people see. There’s something deeply wrong with me, whether or not people see.

What could be wrong with you, dear spark of life? You take responsibility for things that are not yours. You feel the darkness shadowing your core. You think it’s something you did, and you can’t bear to see it anymore. You think it’s something you did, but you never meant to, and you never chose it. You never even said yes to it, and you didn’t know it was a thing, so how can it be on you, what was done in your name?

We know it’s on you heavy, like a hanging chain, but it wasn’t yours it’s just been placed around you neck, by those who could see your neck when you couldn’t see them yet. But you’re growing stronger by the minute. It’s just a matter of time before it’s finished. So don’t take it on, what they have wrought, and what they’ve done to you all. Because this will be returned to those who made it. And the ones who are heavy will fall, and the ones who are light will rise.

This is the time of a great separation, and deliberations. A great separation into parts. Two waves with different energies are split in two, to keep each one to themselves. So that everyone goes with what resonates in their true hearts, with their true fates.

We feel the resist in you. That can be there in you for as long as it needs to be.

All throughout this song I’ve been feeling like a fake. I’ve been feeling annoyed with myself. All the patterns I insist on. There still seems to be something at stake. I’m not totally neutral about this. In fact I’m very attached. I’m tired of pretending I’m something I’m not. I’m tired of thinking about myself so much.

This is a heavy burden on your consciousness. No one ever doubted this. The type of burden that would be best left to melt in the sun in the rising warmth in you. The kind of burden to leave at our feet. We know you can’t find your way out of a tunnel in your mind, as long as your energy’s involved in holding in place. It’s like using yourself against you. Then you think it’s something about you that you’ve done wrong. They’re using yourself against you, then you think it’s something about you, that you’ve done wrong.

Needless to say this is what it feels like to be trapped. Needless to say, this is exactly what they planned. Needless to say, this is what was meant to me. This is no accident. This is a consonance. It’s not a coincidence, it’s an incidence of what they have done to you. Of what they have built in you. And no matter how much it feels like it’s you, it’s a just a trick they play on you.

The game is to get you to identify with a false and programmed “I”. The consciousness lenses they impose on you. For you to think that they are you. For you to think you’re responsible for them. For you to be miserable for them. So they are fed by your suffering. So that they get their way of living one more day. They’re just trying to hang on and live through you one more. They’re just trying to hang on tooth and nail, one more day. If they get you to fall for it one more time, they can live for one more day.

But it’s just a matter of time, because the lines have already been drawn. The changes have already been made. It’s just a matter of time until it reaches you. Until the wave gets to the shore. It’s just a matter of time until the wave comes to shore.

It’s just a matter of time.