There's Always a Space for You

Thumbnail reverently appropriated from Vertical, a collaborative zine created Nov 2017 in the BFA Vertical Lab at Portland State University

You took the fun out of it. You took the fun out of it! You took the fun out of it and now I don't want to play. You took the joy out of it and now I don't want to play. This is what you do, don't you see it, don't you see it? I know you see it, so I have compassion for you. I know you don't mean to be so dry, I know you wish you could be happy and free. I almost said, Like me. Happy and free like me!

I know I never say I was somebody like that. And you're not used to seeing me smile. But I know you don't mean it, and I have compassion for you. I have compassion for you. Even though you took the fun out of it. Like a child I am willing to forgive. Like a child I am willing to start over when you say you want to join in after all. Like a child I know that one is always one more, and if you want to join, it makes the play fun. 

So you are welcome, very welcome to join in now. You show up just as you are, no preparation. You come all bedraggled, sad-hearted. No matter, come - bedraggled, sad hearted. No matter - we can always do something if you come. We can always do something to mend you. We can always do something if you're willing to come. It doesn't matter if you feel too dirty, like a child I don't even see it. Like a child I don't see the divisions between what is good and what is not good. So I welcome you just as you are.

And I sense beneath that sad heart you're good-hearted. And how could you not be good deep down? But with you it's even not that deep. 

And I know that you want to be happy, and that you've sought your own freedom, at night when you think no one's looking, well I saw you, I saw you my love! At night when you thought no one was looking, you practiced to fly like the light, well I saw you and it only made me love you so much. 

So yes you are welcome in here. Come inside. Come inside just as you are!

I know that you want to be happy. And I know that you long to be free, to come to something you once knew as love. And I don't mind if you use the same phrases, and if you repeat a pattern, if you come all bedraggled and broken, I know this is what this dimension does.

And I recognize you as the one we all are! As the missing pieces that I have longed for, so long! Yes I have looked for every day, under every rock and behind each tree. I have worked through the earth with my own hands looking for you, my love.

That is how important you are. No need to hide from me now. My heart is as wide as a freeway, so much love passing through the lanes. And I love you just the way you are.

You took the fun out of this. You took the joy out of it. When you come by, children run the other way. And with a sad heart you register that this is this way. And you long to return to the materials that you were made out of. You're tired of holding potential, differentials, and differences, polarities, imbalances. You long to come. To close the gap. To neutralize the charge. 

And I don't blame you! This is where the good news comes in. Because I have missed you so much too! And I have never forgotten you, no matter how many thousands of years have transpired since we first split, I don't forget what is My Own. And you are my own, I'll take you home! I'll take you home, warm in my arms.

Warm in my arms, you can rest your head on my shoulder. You can sleep. You can relax into the world of dreams. As you feel me moving through you. Around and within you behind and below you above you around you and through you. Around and through you, below you above you behind you in front of you within you. I am you and I reclaim you.

Honey love, it feels so good to have you back in my arms.  Like a child who left me way too soon I have longed to hold you, and all these spaces gaps and cracks have hurt me, and I have longed to close it, and I know you remember the times when I did. When I broke through. When I touched you, and I kissed you. When I held you from within you.

When I shone the light so you could see where to walk. And I cleared some things from your path so you don't fall. And I held you when you were sad, and you were lonely calling out. Anytime some comfort came, whenever you called me, I was there, because I love you like always. And I always will, and I always do. There's no moment when I don't, and I'm always watching you.

I never forget the place where you were carved out of me. I never forget the place that's yours waiting for you. And when the time is right you'll slide back in. Like a blanket I'll be waiting warm and happily for you. And no matter what happens this can't change. No matter what happens you are mine. Everything goes back to its place in time. I hold your frequency and I remember where you came from, I hold it like a childhood room that's always waiting for you, for when it's time for you to come back into my heart.

There's always a space for you.